We're probably headed off the 'fiscal cliff,' which may be worse for economists and wall street investors than for the average you and me. But wait! I forget! I AM one of those wall street investors. Yes, it's all in my pension and IRA mutual funds. Someone else worries about it for me day to day, actually many someone elses who make their living doing that, which means I make less. But hey, we're all in this together and they have their skill and I have mine, and that's the way complex economies work.
I've always perceived America as a Democratic nation, not a capitalist
nation. I do not equate the two. My patriotism is not attached to
capitalism, but democracy. For me, the deeper value is the common
good. Yes, wages ride on the market. It there is no safety net, people
will take any wage to survive. And yes, businesses will pay a higher
wage to get the workers they need, up to the limit of their earning
capacity. They will also seek to find ways to reduce labor, for after
all, it is their highest cost. One way to do that is to export jobs to
places where they can pay lower wages, sometimes for even higher quality
productivity. If business owners are doing well they will likely pay
themselves more. Business is business. And yes, it's the American
way.
So, the way a progressive-tax society 'caps' earnings is NOT by limiting
them, but by taxing those who earn more at a higher rate than those
who earn less. As a pastor in an urban-transitional neighborhood I work
every day with people trying to live on $12,000-$18,000 a year in
EARNINGS. They simply cannot pay more taxes. Some suggest eliminating
income taxes and replacing them with consumption taxes. Problem there, is
that the lowest income people are the highest percentage consumers, and
they are buying mostly basic survival commodities. We have a consumer
economy, so the middle class is holding it up and would have to even
more. Rich folks are the ones who have more disposable income, so are
more able to pay higher tax rates. Yes, we hope they are reinvesting
much of that income in production, thus creating more American jobs. But the
economy is global, so that is not working for us anymore in the ways it has in
the past. Progressive taxation has
worked well before and can again. Business reinvestment in production
is a protected 'loophole' and should be.
But any way you look at it,
globalization will continue leveling America to the rest of the world.
The developing world way includes a wider and widening gap between rich
and poor. We are way past the rest of the world on that now. Is that
where we want to be? I don't think so. So, I am in favor of more progressive taxation. John D. Rockefeller made railroads and made them run. He paid 92% in taxes. At the same time he was able to build Riverside Church, a magnificent edifice in New York City, and he did much, much more for the common good. He still died rich. I'd love to be a philanthropist. But I don't play the lottery. And I decided long ago to use my directive/entrepreneurial skill set to take a pastor's wage rather than run a business. So, I give in other ways.
Obviously, I am no economist. Much of what I hear I do not understand. Promoting the common good seems like common sense to me, but maybe it's more complicated than I think it is. The capitalist logic of rising boats, or trickle-down, has NEVER made sense to me. Seems to me we are all on one boat together, in one sea. My observation is the water flows downhill from the little purses to the big purses, or from credit unions to Cayman Island bank accounts as the case may be. So, redistribution has never seemed a nasty word to me.
Pastor on the Point
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Saturday, August 18, 2012
A Reconciling Spirit in the Midst of Political Contention
Our daughter
Evangeline was with us again this weekend following our wonderful summer
vacation together. She and her husband
Alex, Mary and I traveled to Isle Royale
National Park in Lake
Superior where we hiked about twenty miles. We had already put in six miles at a state
park in Wisconsin
on the way. We drove to Munising, Michigan
and boarded a boat to see the Pictured Rocks National Seashore. Then we drove on to Mackinac Island for a day,
then back to the Detroit
area, where Evangeline will begin teaching second and third graders after Labor
Day.
Our trip began
during the Olympics, with late-night TV viewing of events together. We voted just before leaving town and checked
the results from afar on wi-fi. We all
were glad to exit from the local negative campaign ads. Our trip ended with the announcement that
Paul Ryan will be Governor Romney’s vice presidential running mate. The national unity of winning the Olympic
medal count gave way again to partisan rhetoric, as both parties refocused the
negativity.
I understand that
negative campaigning works. I understand
why the end result of winning an election might justify campaign negativity,
when a candidate and party, and now their PAC funded supporters, believe so
strongly that this candidate, and this party’s ideology and policies, are what
the nation needs. But I still don’t like
it. I don’t like the negativity. I don’t want to believe it is necessary. I want to hold to an ethic of love instead of
a teleological ethic in which ‘the ends justify the means.’ I want to hold to an ethic of love, instead
of a deontological ethic based on rules and legal imposition. An ethic of love puts respect, honoring and
reconciliation first.
Evangeline said
she was driving and noticed a yard in which signs were posted for both
presidential candidates. She imagined a
husband and wife in the household, one a Democrat and the other a Republican,
loving each other and respecting each others’ differences. Mary told her about James Carville, President
Clinton’s campaign strategist, and Mary Matelin, an advisor to the first
President Bush, coming to love each other from opposite sides of a heated
presidential campaign, marrying, making a life together, with neither
compromising his or her political and ideological commitments. Evangeline said, “That’s amazing! Why can’t more people be like that? I admire
couples who can disgree and still love each other.” Of course, we all can find something upon
which we disagree! The test, then, is
whether we can trust and share, or have to keep our mouths shut to get
along. Silence is tragic. Discussion is empowering. Disagreement might even transform!
As this campaign
season continues to heat up I encourage you to dialogue. Listen to statements, and check to make sure
they are fact. In this post-modern age
truth-telling is not a high cultural virtue.
We Christians can make it so again.
Listen to others with open ears, hearts, and minds. Read your Bible. Pray.
Test ideas against scripture, reason, Christian tradition and your own
faith experience. Christian dialogue
does not judge. That’s God’s job. Christian dialogue respects differences. Christians are courageous enough to decide
and act. This is America. Christians can act by voting. Christians also forgive and reconcile.
Rev. Mark Harvey
Monday, June 25, 2012
2012 Missouri Annual Conference emphasis on Young People: Will it Make a Difference?
I encourage you to read Nathan Hunton's comments on The Missouri Annual Conference on Harmony UMC's website, www.harmonyumc.wordpress.com. I've never had a lay representative so thoroughly committed to detailed reporting. Maybe Nathan is putting the effort in this year because he feels this conference might actually make a difference. We made a genuine attempt to engage youth and young adult leadership, and address topics and issues to help us older folks understand and respond. If we don't turn around the massive loss of younger generations in our churches we simply will not have churches. I've said for years they are leaving for all the 'right' reasons. It's not that young people do not want to be engaged in meaningful dialogue and action. Witness 55,000 people running and walking in The Komen Race for Cure last weekend. It's not even that they are less 'faithful.' Most say they are 'spiritual' if not religious. They just don't trust institutions, and don't see themselves in leadership when they attend a church. Yes, those of us older folks in the church are typically more than willing to turn over leadership. But why would younger people want that?
We're considering trying something new at Harmony. We will vote July 9 on a plan to hire a new associate pastor to effectively build a new worshiping community of young adults. I don't know if Harmony will vote to do it. Many would rather have an elevator so aging folks can more easily move about the building. We'll see.
Thanks Nathan, for your leadership. Thanks Katy Hunton, for going to Conference with your husband, representing us.
We're considering trying something new at Harmony. We will vote July 9 on a plan to hire a new associate pastor to effectively build a new worshiping community of young adults. I don't know if Harmony will vote to do it. Many would rather have an elevator so aging folks can more easily move about the building. We'll see.
Thanks Nathan, for your leadership. Thanks Katy Hunton, for going to Conference with your husband, representing us.
Friday, May 4, 2012
No More Tenure for Methodist Pastors
This week The United Methodist General Conference eliminated guaranteed appointment for ordained clergy. We've talked about it a lot in the last several years as the UMC declines along with other mainline denominations. Churches are getting smaller. Clergy compensation keeps getting higher to keep up with inflation. Health insurance costs have skyrocketed. You don't have to be an economist to read the graph and see it's unsustainable. In some places we have congregations averaging 70 in worship to which three full time clergy are assigned. That's not the case in Missouri where I am. Here we have the opposite: half our
churches are pastored by lay preachers. It's a two-tier compensation
system: part time lay pastors don't get pension and health insurance, so
more and more churches are prone to desire lay preachers. And truth is, many of those part-time lay pastors do a great job, maybe even better than some of our ordained clergy. They live in the community longer, get to know the people better. But our churches get to pay less with no benefits. If the Federal Equal Opportunity Employment Commission ever catches up with us we might be in trouble: same job description, two-tiered compensation. Maybe religious institutions are exempt on that. If so, should we be?
And, there is the issue of educated versus non-educated clergy. That was a big battle fought over a hundred years ago. Methodism wanted uniformity in what was taught and preached in our pulpits. We established wonderful seminaries, great halls of learning. But they became an end unto themselves in some people's opinion. Now they also are struggling. I wonder: without guaranteed appointment of clergy, will we have fewer clergy going to seminary? If a 'called' person can pastor a church without a seminary degree, why get one? Truth is, seminaries have not given us the theological uniformity we desired. But I think they have produced open-minded clergy who are life-long learners and willing to dialogue. We may not all agree on everything, but we have a systematic framework for understanding the differences and even appreciating them. I think that is important for The Church in this time of such rapid and profound transition. Not to speak of having clergy who are grounded in the ups and downs of church history and scriptural intrepretation methodology.
It took nine years for me to get ordained as a United Methodist elder in full connection. I got kicked out of the process, and waited to return until after some of my "enemies" were off the Board of Ministry. The word "enemies" is in quotes, because I learned over time that was not the way it was or is. Some of them have become friends since. They were seeking to shape a headstrong up-against-it change-agent into a pastor who could love and support and embrace as well. I needed that. The Church needed that from me. I've remained a change-agent, but with a deeper appreciation of why institutions must be sustained, why the church needs chaplains as well as prophets, and why every pastor has to be a little of both for the good of The Church. My fear, with others, is that those of us whose spiritual gifts lean more prophetic than pastoral will not be initially accepted or later tolerated. The very 'risk-takers' we need to transform The Church might be shut out because they are not 'producing fruit.' The 'fruit,' for institutional purposes, is what I call "butts in pews and bucks in the plate." We put a more positive spin on that by saying "making disciples of Christ for the transformation of the world." I'm not really THAT cynical. I understand those are not completely the same thing. Making disciples is NOT primarily for institutional maintenance. We are not going to make more disciples together unless we DO maintain some semblance of an institution. But they are not really "disciples" unless deeply committed to Jesus' reign of social justice.
What irks me about this elimination of guaranteed appointment is that it seems to be capitulation to capitalist incentive thinking. I know it's more complicated than that. But I learned as a community organizer, "Always follow the money." Yes, our current situation is unsustainable. But the average age of our clergy is 59. Won't this issue take care of itself in the next few years as more and more of us retire? Boards of Ministry are already getting more and more selective about who and how many they let in. We're already sending younger clergy into higher salary situations from the get-go, and I understand why that is necessary. They have student loans to pay, children to raise, and experience to gain.
The bishops say they needed more power to get rid of 'ineffective' clergy. Now they have the challenge of defining that. How will they? Does it mainly come down to having a stronger stick to push clergy to produce more butts in pews and bucks in the plate? We all know that DOES need to happen. My judgment is most of us are trying our darndest. We've always blamed the clergy. It's all bishops can control. This is just another face of that, I think. My hope and prayer is that we will use this as an opportunity to deepen clergy collegiality and soft accountability. I honestly can't name many clergy colleagues who are just simply 'ineffective.' Maybe the bishops have bigger lists than I. I suspect they do. The last big question is, "Am I on the list?" Are YOU?
And, there is the issue of educated versus non-educated clergy. That was a big battle fought over a hundred years ago. Methodism wanted uniformity in what was taught and preached in our pulpits. We established wonderful seminaries, great halls of learning. But they became an end unto themselves in some people's opinion. Now they also are struggling. I wonder: without guaranteed appointment of clergy, will we have fewer clergy going to seminary? If a 'called' person can pastor a church without a seminary degree, why get one? Truth is, seminaries have not given us the theological uniformity we desired. But I think they have produced open-minded clergy who are life-long learners and willing to dialogue. We may not all agree on everything, but we have a systematic framework for understanding the differences and even appreciating them. I think that is important for The Church in this time of such rapid and profound transition. Not to speak of having clergy who are grounded in the ups and downs of church history and scriptural intrepretation methodology.
It took nine years for me to get ordained as a United Methodist elder in full connection. I got kicked out of the process, and waited to return until after some of my "enemies" were off the Board of Ministry. The word "enemies" is in quotes, because I learned over time that was not the way it was or is. Some of them have become friends since. They were seeking to shape a headstrong up-against-it change-agent into a pastor who could love and support and embrace as well. I needed that. The Church needed that from me. I've remained a change-agent, but with a deeper appreciation of why institutions must be sustained, why the church needs chaplains as well as prophets, and why every pastor has to be a little of both for the good of The Church. My fear, with others, is that those of us whose spiritual gifts lean more prophetic than pastoral will not be initially accepted or later tolerated. The very 'risk-takers' we need to transform The Church might be shut out because they are not 'producing fruit.' The 'fruit,' for institutional purposes, is what I call "butts in pews and bucks in the plate." We put a more positive spin on that by saying "making disciples of Christ for the transformation of the world." I'm not really THAT cynical. I understand those are not completely the same thing. Making disciples is NOT primarily for institutional maintenance. We are not going to make more disciples together unless we DO maintain some semblance of an institution. But they are not really "disciples" unless deeply committed to Jesus' reign of social justice.
What irks me about this elimination of guaranteed appointment is that it seems to be capitulation to capitalist incentive thinking. I know it's more complicated than that. But I learned as a community organizer, "Always follow the money." Yes, our current situation is unsustainable. But the average age of our clergy is 59. Won't this issue take care of itself in the next few years as more and more of us retire? Boards of Ministry are already getting more and more selective about who and how many they let in. We're already sending younger clergy into higher salary situations from the get-go, and I understand why that is necessary. They have student loans to pay, children to raise, and experience to gain.
The bishops say they needed more power to get rid of 'ineffective' clergy. Now they have the challenge of defining that. How will they? Does it mainly come down to having a stronger stick to push clergy to produce more butts in pews and bucks in the plate? We all know that DOES need to happen. My judgment is most of us are trying our darndest. We've always blamed the clergy. It's all bishops can control. This is just another face of that, I think. My hope and prayer is that we will use this as an opportunity to deepen clergy collegiality and soft accountability. I honestly can't name many clergy colleagues who are just simply 'ineffective.' Maybe the bishops have bigger lists than I. I suspect they do. The last big question is, "Am I on the list?" Are YOU?
Monday, April 16, 2012
Why Vital Congregations? Why Not House Churches?
I just read Bishop Schnase's daily post, called The Most Significant Arena. He ends, "Imagine how God could use our churches all the more to change lives, foster communities in Christ, and relieve suffering if we really behaved as if local churches provide the most significant arena through which we make disciples of Jesus Christ for the transformation of the world. Imagine!"
I am imagining. I'd love to see it. I have seen glimpses. I've even helped make a few happen. I remember Grace Church in Saint Louis hosting visiting youth work teams to rehab homes of elderly neighbors. I worked side-by-side leading that project with African graduate students whose loans members of the congregation sponsored. I remember New Hope UMC in rural Randolph County hosting annual chili dinners with bazaars. People came from far and near. Many of the neighbors were Amish. They contributed quilts and other items in honor of their neighbors who through the year transported them to town and allowed use of a telephone. Yes, I've seen congregations do vital ministry.
But Bishop Schnase walks through the history of Methodism back to Wesley, showing how every 'method' had a purpose, for creating and sustaining accountability. Frankly, I've not experienced a lot of that in 'congregations.' I've tried to make it happen. But I've not found the dynamic system of a 'congregation' very conducive to that purpose. It is a voluntary association, with at least one staff-person who is held accountable by a paycheck and supervision, or maybe a few other staff. But volunteerism does not lend itself well to accountability, in my experience, which is extensive.
Early Methodism focused NOT on congregations, but through small groups. In fact, the development of Methodist congregations was discouraged. People were already in a congregation, a state-sponsored Episcopal parish church. Then in America, the circuit riders built class meetings, NOT congregations. When they left the circuiting life they might be 'located' to a congregation. But that was not where the mission was happening.
How is it that we Methodists became congregationalists? Very early we left that to the Presbyterians, then to the Baptists. Meeting houses, maybe. But congregations? The congregation simply was NOT the revolutionary structure for being Methodist.
Maybe it still isn't. There's a house church movement gaining steam: of people who are disenchanted with congregations as they know them, who want a freer and smaller expression or form of the Church. This includes younger people, secular people, who are not likely to show up or be interested in involvement in a traditional congregation.
Frankly, I have found 'Christian' collegiality and accountability more in and through secular organizations than through congregations. I've been active with Jobs With Justice, Health Care for All, Faith Based Community Organizing. I find these to be people who are DOING the gospel instead of mostly talking about it or wanting someone else to do it FOR them.
I'm a pastor. I am paid by a congregation. I make my living seeking to raise up and equip folks for ministry, including accountability. But honestly, I don't think it is going very well. Maybe "vital congregations" is just not the best way to DO Christian faith. Maybe we are sustaining the form to keep ourselves employed, more than to DO the function. I will keep trying and consider it faithful. But sometimes I wonder.
I am imagining. I'd love to see it. I have seen glimpses. I've even helped make a few happen. I remember Grace Church in Saint Louis hosting visiting youth work teams to rehab homes of elderly neighbors. I worked side-by-side leading that project with African graduate students whose loans members of the congregation sponsored. I remember New Hope UMC in rural Randolph County hosting annual chili dinners with bazaars. People came from far and near. Many of the neighbors were Amish. They contributed quilts and other items in honor of their neighbors who through the year transported them to town and allowed use of a telephone. Yes, I've seen congregations do vital ministry.
But Bishop Schnase walks through the history of Methodism back to Wesley, showing how every 'method' had a purpose, for creating and sustaining accountability. Frankly, I've not experienced a lot of that in 'congregations.' I've tried to make it happen. But I've not found the dynamic system of a 'congregation' very conducive to that purpose. It is a voluntary association, with at least one staff-person who is held accountable by a paycheck and supervision, or maybe a few other staff. But volunteerism does not lend itself well to accountability, in my experience, which is extensive.
Early Methodism focused NOT on congregations, but through small groups. In fact, the development of Methodist congregations was discouraged. People were already in a congregation, a state-sponsored Episcopal parish church. Then in America, the circuit riders built class meetings, NOT congregations. When they left the circuiting life they might be 'located' to a congregation. But that was not where the mission was happening.
How is it that we Methodists became congregationalists? Very early we left that to the Presbyterians, then to the Baptists. Meeting houses, maybe. But congregations? The congregation simply was NOT the revolutionary structure for being Methodist.
Maybe it still isn't. There's a house church movement gaining steam: of people who are disenchanted with congregations as they know them, who want a freer and smaller expression or form of the Church. This includes younger people, secular people, who are not likely to show up or be interested in involvement in a traditional congregation.
Frankly, I have found 'Christian' collegiality and accountability more in and through secular organizations than through congregations. I've been active with Jobs With Justice, Health Care for All, Faith Based Community Organizing. I find these to be people who are DOING the gospel instead of mostly talking about it or wanting someone else to do it FOR them.
I'm a pastor. I am paid by a congregation. I make my living seeking to raise up and equip folks for ministry, including accountability. But honestly, I don't think it is going very well. Maybe "vital congregations" is just not the best way to DO Christian faith. Maybe we are sustaining the form to keep ourselves employed, more than to DO the function. I will keep trying and consider it faithful. But sometimes I wonder.
Monday, April 2, 2012
On 'Coming of Age'
I'm just feeling the trend personally now, but it's been there a long time. Ageism. I applied for a denominational position for which my entire career has prepared me. It went to a less trained, less experienced and younger lay hire. I don't know him. I will graciously trust he will do the job well and give him all the support I can.
I'm going to turn 59 this week. In another six months I hit that advantageous but dangerous 59 1/2 when the IRA funds can be drawn without penalty. During the past year we bought a future retirement home. For the down payment I smartly drew a loan on pensions funds which I pay back to myself at 6%. Surely there is no safer investment paying more. I have enough pension in place to get me through if my body crashes, even now. I got the wake-up call this past week, with two stents put in my right coronary artery. I start cardiac rehab next week.
But I'm still working. Going strong, in my opinion. I think I can go stronger with more blood flowing to my heart muscle and cardiac rehab exercise and healthier eating. A blip, to be sure. But what happened to veneration of people for having all this wisdom of life experience? Two Masters degrees. Thirty-six years spanning three professions. Lots to share. But who gets hired? Who gets placed in those 'leadership' roles we thought we were working toward? It used to be wise folks in their fifties and early sixties. Now it's rising stars in their 30's and even 20's.
I have no need to belittle the trend. I understand it. I am a pastor in The United Methodist Church. The average age of our pastors is- you guessed it- 59. I've been an "average" aged pastor most of my career. We have more coming into the profession from other careers (as did I) than right out of fast-track education. I think that broader life experience has served us well. But the average age of our parishioners is also- you guessed it- 59. That's nearly twice the population median age. I am now pastoring a church with a much higher average age. Wonderful people. It's just that most of them are old. They give sacrificially. But they don't recruit well. Their grandchildren or even children have left the church in droves, or shown up in newer, tech-ier, trendier megachurches instead. So, understandably, we are emphasizing recruitment and deployment of younger clergy to what have always been our most prestigious roles. It remains to be seen whether this will 'work.' The measurable outcome will be, as one of my parishioners once parsimoniously defined it, "bucks in the plate and butts in the pews." We Methodists more judiciously call it "Making Disciples for Jesus Christ for the Transformation of the World."
I like that last part best. But that's been part of our problem. We've had too many like me: justice crusaders putting less emphasis on bringing new people along. My hope and strategy has always been that if we ARE the church people think a church should be, then people will come. We do have to invite them. I always have. But in truth, the numbers of justice crusaders have always been few. The church has always been populated with other types in greater number. It's been true of every congregation I have pastored. Not BAD people. Just not JUSTICE people.
I just helped two aging churches merge. One of the leaders (who, by the way, left us for a 'younger' church though he is older than I) said in the process, "Just because you merge two dying churches doesn't mean you get a live one." I agree. We are doing all we can to attract younger people, by focusing on children's, youth and family ministry. But there are not so many 'young' people with us to do the work. We've failed too long to attract them. So, it is harder now.
I don't know if assigning 'younger' pastors to theses churches is going to make the situation any better. I suppose it is a worthwhile experiment. What we've decided, is we will seek to muster the leaders in every church to demonstrate they want to live. If they do, we will assign a 'younger' pastor. If they by inertia 'decide' to die, we'll give them an older one.
Which brings it back to me. Which am I? I always thought I was one of those creative, energetic, expansive, successful, 'above-average' pastors who could help a church turn around. I've had reasonable success in a few places, less in others. I plan to keep trying. But maybe I'm not. Or not anymore. Maybe I'm now one of those pastors who will be assigned to help a church gracefully die. Or churches: the deader they are the more of them they give us. This is self-prophesying to some extent, but economically inevitable.
Somebody wrote a book called something like I Refuse to Preside Over a Dying Church. The author sees this as a call to lead a turn-around. Some of my colleagues have seen it as an invitation to exit. Of course, there is more ageism out there in the secular world than in the church. Our denomination is considering whether to eliminate tenure for pastors. We'll know in late April what they decide. Since half or more of the voting delegates are 59 or older or close to it, I expect it will get tabled. But maybe not. Not sure where I am on this one. At 59, I'm at that point where I will do my best to do my duty to Make Disciples for Jesus Christ for the Transformation of the World, and let the chips fall where they may.
I've decided not to sue The United Methodist Church over ageism, though I think I'd have a pretty good case, with wide class action opportunity. But when I signed on, it was to go where they send me. I'll still trust God is in that somewhere. Regardless, we get up every morning, pray, then do what we can do.
I'm going to turn 59 this week. In another six months I hit that advantageous but dangerous 59 1/2 when the IRA funds can be drawn without penalty. During the past year we bought a future retirement home. For the down payment I smartly drew a loan on pensions funds which I pay back to myself at 6%. Surely there is no safer investment paying more. I have enough pension in place to get me through if my body crashes, even now. I got the wake-up call this past week, with two stents put in my right coronary artery. I start cardiac rehab next week.
But I'm still working. Going strong, in my opinion. I think I can go stronger with more blood flowing to my heart muscle and cardiac rehab exercise and healthier eating. A blip, to be sure. But what happened to veneration of people for having all this wisdom of life experience? Two Masters degrees. Thirty-six years spanning three professions. Lots to share. But who gets hired? Who gets placed in those 'leadership' roles we thought we were working toward? It used to be wise folks in their fifties and early sixties. Now it's rising stars in their 30's and even 20's.
I have no need to belittle the trend. I understand it. I am a pastor in The United Methodist Church. The average age of our pastors is- you guessed it- 59. I've been an "average" aged pastor most of my career. We have more coming into the profession from other careers (as did I) than right out of fast-track education. I think that broader life experience has served us well. But the average age of our parishioners is also- you guessed it- 59. That's nearly twice the population median age. I am now pastoring a church with a much higher average age. Wonderful people. It's just that most of them are old. They give sacrificially. But they don't recruit well. Their grandchildren or even children have left the church in droves, or shown up in newer, tech-ier, trendier megachurches instead. So, understandably, we are emphasizing recruitment and deployment of younger clergy to what have always been our most prestigious roles. It remains to be seen whether this will 'work.' The measurable outcome will be, as one of my parishioners once parsimoniously defined it, "bucks in the plate and butts in the pews." We Methodists more judiciously call it "Making Disciples for Jesus Christ for the Transformation of the World."
I like that last part best. But that's been part of our problem. We've had too many like me: justice crusaders putting less emphasis on bringing new people along. My hope and strategy has always been that if we ARE the church people think a church should be, then people will come. We do have to invite them. I always have. But in truth, the numbers of justice crusaders have always been few. The church has always been populated with other types in greater number. It's been true of every congregation I have pastored. Not BAD people. Just not JUSTICE people.
I just helped two aging churches merge. One of the leaders (who, by the way, left us for a 'younger' church though he is older than I) said in the process, "Just because you merge two dying churches doesn't mean you get a live one." I agree. We are doing all we can to attract younger people, by focusing on children's, youth and family ministry. But there are not so many 'young' people with us to do the work. We've failed too long to attract them. So, it is harder now.
I don't know if assigning 'younger' pastors to theses churches is going to make the situation any better. I suppose it is a worthwhile experiment. What we've decided, is we will seek to muster the leaders in every church to demonstrate they want to live. If they do, we will assign a 'younger' pastor. If they by inertia 'decide' to die, we'll give them an older one.
Which brings it back to me. Which am I? I always thought I was one of those creative, energetic, expansive, successful, 'above-average' pastors who could help a church turn around. I've had reasonable success in a few places, less in others. I plan to keep trying. But maybe I'm not. Or not anymore. Maybe I'm now one of those pastors who will be assigned to help a church gracefully die. Or churches: the deader they are the more of them they give us. This is self-prophesying to some extent, but economically inevitable.
Somebody wrote a book called something like I Refuse to Preside Over a Dying Church. The author sees this as a call to lead a turn-around. Some of my colleagues have seen it as an invitation to exit. Of course, there is more ageism out there in the secular world than in the church. Our denomination is considering whether to eliminate tenure for pastors. We'll know in late April what they decide. Since half or more of the voting delegates are 59 or older or close to it, I expect it will get tabled. But maybe not. Not sure where I am on this one. At 59, I'm at that point where I will do my best to do my duty to Make Disciples for Jesus Christ for the Transformation of the World, and let the chips fall where they may.
I've decided not to sue The United Methodist Church over ageism, though I think I'd have a pretty good case, with wide class action opportunity. But when I signed on, it was to go where they send me. I'll still trust God is in that somewhere. Regardless, we get up every morning, pray, then do what we can do.
Thursday, March 29, 2012
Crossing the Threshold into Heart Disease
I knew most of my life I was a candidate for heart disease. My father had his first bypass operation at age 49, then two more. His father dropped dead with his first heart attack at 71. My mother, now 85, received her first stint just a year ago. I will be 59 in a week. I know 40% of American males aged 55-70 drop dead with their first myocardial infarction. I always suspected it was coming: that one of these days I'd grab my chest and feel the telltale pain down the arm and up into the neck, for the big one. But the heart catheterization eight years ago was negative. So was the stress test four years ago. So, when I started getting this very mild pain in my upper chest, radiating back into the left shoulder, I figured I probably had just strained something on a nautilus machine at the gym.
Glad I checked it out. Yesterday Dr. Biel at Depaul put in two stints in my right coronary artery. One blockage was 80% ecluded. The other was 90%. I was cruising for the big one. Most people don't know it when they are. I certainly didn't. Of course, I suspected. I''d developed this nonchalant attitude: "I've pretty much done with my life what I'd hoped to. I could go anytime." Mary and I have been talking about grandchildren. Don't have any yet, but more and more of our friends do. Not that we're pushing our kids, because neither is there yet. But is anyone ever, really? Is anyone ever ready for a heart attack? Or even stint placement?
Now, what difference does it make? I'd say the biggest choice now is whether I want to live quite a bit longer, or die of a heart attack. It used to be theoretical. Now it's real. I've been taking lipitor and fish oil and an aspirin every morning for ten years. That was all preventive. Now I've added the plavix and the beta-blocker. This stuff is not cheap. Yes, my health insurance pays for most of it, but not all. I've decided that since I am taking the drugs, I really DO want to live. But I know better than to think that alone will ward off the big one.
I started back to the gym in February. I decided to give up NOT going to the gym for Lent. If I'd not been working out on a treadmill at least three times a week I wouldn't have known I was having angina chest pain. That's when I felt it most. I went to my internist. He first figured it was weight-lifting too. I called my internist sister. She said, "Try the beta-blocker first." But then my internist said, No, let's do another stress test." Glad I did. And by the way, the nuclear thallium test came out negative. The treadmill EKG told the tale.
What's the spiritual threshold here? It's not that I've learned anything new here. I knew it was coming, eventually. But what's different, is that 'eventually' is now NOW. I AM old, not just getting old. I HAVE heart disease now. I'm not just expecting I will eventually have it. So, before I knew I should cut back on the salt and the fast food and the red meat. Now I KNOW that if I want to live, I MUST. It's a new place. Spiritually, it's a gift. Uncertainty turns to certainty. But procrastination must also now turn to disciplined lifestyle change. Past speculation and learning becomes rubber on the road. I am a person of faith, but even so I believe we only pass this way once. I feel like I've already made the most of it. I've done enough, all things considered. But I'm also not ready to pack it in yet. Today we cleared all the high-sodium cans out of the pantry. I ate a tin of sardines for lunch, with two slices of low-sodium and high fiber toast. Think I'll have a salad for dinner, low-fat dressing on the side.
Glad I checked it out. Yesterday Dr. Biel at Depaul put in two stints in my right coronary artery. One blockage was 80% ecluded. The other was 90%. I was cruising for the big one. Most people don't know it when they are. I certainly didn't. Of course, I suspected. I''d developed this nonchalant attitude: "I've pretty much done with my life what I'd hoped to. I could go anytime." Mary and I have been talking about grandchildren. Don't have any yet, but more and more of our friends do. Not that we're pushing our kids, because neither is there yet. But is anyone ever, really? Is anyone ever ready for a heart attack? Or even stint placement?
Now, what difference does it make? I'd say the biggest choice now is whether I want to live quite a bit longer, or die of a heart attack. It used to be theoretical. Now it's real. I've been taking lipitor and fish oil and an aspirin every morning for ten years. That was all preventive. Now I've added the plavix and the beta-blocker. This stuff is not cheap. Yes, my health insurance pays for most of it, but not all. I've decided that since I am taking the drugs, I really DO want to live. But I know better than to think that alone will ward off the big one.
I started back to the gym in February. I decided to give up NOT going to the gym for Lent. If I'd not been working out on a treadmill at least three times a week I wouldn't have known I was having angina chest pain. That's when I felt it most. I went to my internist. He first figured it was weight-lifting too. I called my internist sister. She said, "Try the beta-blocker first." But then my internist said, No, let's do another stress test." Glad I did. And by the way, the nuclear thallium test came out negative. The treadmill EKG told the tale.
What's the spiritual threshold here? It's not that I've learned anything new here. I knew it was coming, eventually. But what's different, is that 'eventually' is now NOW. I AM old, not just getting old. I HAVE heart disease now. I'm not just expecting I will eventually have it. So, before I knew I should cut back on the salt and the fast food and the red meat. Now I KNOW that if I want to live, I MUST. It's a new place. Spiritually, it's a gift. Uncertainty turns to certainty. But procrastination must also now turn to disciplined lifestyle change. Past speculation and learning becomes rubber on the road. I am a person of faith, but even so I believe we only pass this way once. I feel like I've already made the most of it. I've done enough, all things considered. But I'm also not ready to pack it in yet. Today we cleared all the high-sodium cans out of the pantry. I ate a tin of sardines for lunch, with two slices of low-sodium and high fiber toast. Think I'll have a salad for dinner, low-fat dressing on the side.
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